Self Destruction

It's what I do best.

I have to stop this or I'm going to ruin it all. But how does one stop torturing herself?

Hell if I know. I just have to find a way to stop this. I walked away from everything for a chance at happiness. And I'm more miserable now than before I met either of them.

One can't make up his mind if I'm who he wants and the other, well the other just tells me the truth, no matter how bad I want him to lie.

And here I am, self destructing. Its what I know. And I've known it for far too long now. Time to stop.

So today, it ends.

I have to find a way to be happy without either of them. That's when I'll truly start to live.

Any ideas on how to do that? Because, I'm lost as hell here.

No, I'm not giving up on him. And no I'm not having second thoughts about my choices. I'm just trying to find a way to make myself happy on my own. I'm sick of being miserable because some guy can't fucking decide if I'm worth being with.

I am damnit. I'm worth risking it all for.

Love and kisses

Sunshine.

Yep, ending it there, because there's nothing left to say. I AM WORTH IT!