An open letter from the human that animates SUN

America. The wonderful country I live in that gives me the right to FREEDOM OF SPEECH. Guess what I use it. If I wish to post a blip and bitch, it's my right. Don't like it? UNFUCKINGFOLLOW. No fucking skin off my back.

Want to call me out for blipping something that never had a name attached? Go right ahead. Unless I specifically SAY YOUR NAME...why do you just ASSUME it's about you? I could be talking about a bitch from a whole other section of the world.

You create account after account to stalk me and harass those I RP with? Sounds like your life is B-O-R-I-N-G!! I'm sick of keeping my mouth shut. So guess what I'm opening it. Wanna talk about how people are "sick" of me? Go ahead..Yet my followers aren't going down...Wanna call me a bitch? Yep, I sure the fuck am..Thank you for noticiing. I sit back and listen to people run their fucking mouths about me all damn day long. Don't say a fucking word. Why? Cuz I find it funny as fuck when their so called friends run back and TELL ME every fucking word they said.

Talk about me. Talk all you want. I can handle it. Want me gone? Too bad, so fucking sad for you. YOU don't run my LIFE. I DO. Always fucking have. Always fucking will. You have a BLOCK and UNFOLLOW BUTTON...USE THE FUCKING THING.

Oh yeah and since everyone fucking is sick of me....guess those 60+ RPers that joined BLOOD PLAY are just figments of my imagination, right?

The human is pissed. The vampire will be watching the stream and calming down before she posts. I regret deleting the fucking tweets. Why? Because I FUCKING MEANT THEM. Damage done? OH MOTHER FUCKING WELL. SO FUCKING BE IT. At the end of the day, my REAL friends will be here. In fact I do believe I'll start unfollowing. My stream sure will be nicer without a bunch of people who fucking hate me so much.

The Human,
Donna aka SUN

A heart broken

Betrayal.

Heartbroken.

How could he keep this from me? It's as if I've never really known him. To keep this from me is the ultimate betrayal.

And yet, my heart feels nothing. Empty. Numb. His turning another? More than I can bare. He knew, he felt how desperately I wanted him to be the one. He pushed me away with words that now mean nothing. Words of protection, and how I was too young. Lies. All of them lies.

And now? Now I have to see his creation every night. Have to deal with their relationship. Fight my attraction to him. And learn to trust Dusk again. When all I really wish is to go to ground until I feel better. Hide.

Hide from myself more than anyone. I know that I shouldn't feel this hurt. I know his reasons but my heart still aches knowing that no matter how it happened, he still turned another.

Where do we go from here? Can this be fixed? We've survived worse. And yet.......

I can't even think past now. I am so overwhelmed by it all. And then to feel his creation's emotions. To know the pain he's felt. To have felt the anguish in which he rose. A story that must come out. A story that I need to hear.

For now, I simply must find a way to stay above ground and focus on trying to keep this family together. ALL of this family. Because no matter what, Killian is now family.

I think I'll find my way to his arms, and for just tonight, not think about the consequences of it all.

Teacups

Teacups and vampires normally don't mix, and yet I find myself wanting more of them. After giving up Siena at birth and then being turned, I never once thought about being a mother. Then fate stepped in and gave me the chance to get back what I never really knew I wanted.

To see her angelic face and not love her would have been like asking me to refrain from drinking blood for the rest of eternity. Simply not possible. Of course she'd crossed my mind over the years but I just managed to push those thoughts away. Then when Brandee showed me the picture of her foster child, I knew, no I felt that I was her mother.

Telling Dusk was the hardest thing I've ever done. His reaction was somewhat confusing but when he told me that he was her father through some strange ass spell gone wrong, I knew that fate had brought us to this point in our lives for a reason. We were meant to raise this teacup. We are her parents and we love her more than you can imagine.

The adjusment seemed to happen quickly. My restraint grows daily and she is learning why Mommy and Daddy are different and has even begun to ask questions about what it's like to be vampire. Not that I'd ever let her see the real dark side, but eventually, when she's old enough, if she wishes to be turned, one of us will do so.

I'm sure I'll catch hell for that last statement, but you have to understand that I knew at an early age this is what I wanted to be. Vampire. So when I'd reached that point in life where I was ready I sought out a maker. Siena won't have far to seek if she chooses. And the choice will be hers and hers alone. No one will pressure her into either lifestyle.

Enough on that subject and back to teacups we go. We have the opportunity now to help out a teacup in need of stability. His mother is one courageous vampire with a heart that is filled with love for him. She's breaking that heart to do what's right for him and I admire her more than she could ever imagine.

Dusk and I discussed this situation at great length and knowing that Scarlett has her son's best interests at heart we've agreed to open our homes and hearts to Darius. She will remain an active, loving mother to her son and our home will be hers as well when she needs it. We will not be his parents, we will simply be Aunt Sun and Uncle Draven and will love him as if he were our own.

We'll treat him no different than Siena or Chase. He will want for nothing, will have rules and structure in his day, and will be loved and protected at all costs.

So there you have it. Very shortly we will be adding to our family. So please make Darius feel welcomed and loved. He is a very special young boy that deserves the best in life. And if you see his mommy Scarlett, tell her how amazing she is. Because this vampire is the bravest one I know.

We love you both very much Scarlett and Darius. Welcome to the craziness that is the Blood Family.

Sunshine.

An open letter to my followers

OOC/IC an issue has been weighing on my heart lately concerning Sun. Before it gets out of hand I feel that I should address this with all of my followers. While I understand that hugs, touching, etc are ways of expressing friendship on here it is getting out of hand. The character of Sun is a character who was severely abused as a child. For her to be hugged and touched this much is not something she would be comfortable with. If you've ever met a victim of abuse you realize that touching is something that is associated with pain.

For those that do not know the backstory of the Sun character I'll give the Reader's Digest version. At the age of six her father began abusing her physically. The beatings were severe enough to leave her near death on more than one occasion. Even after meeting Draven, she found herself withdrawing from his touch. To this day she has moments when touching is not something she will allow.

I've let it go on this long trying to be nice but now I feel the need to put an end to it immediately. If you are not her immediate family or a very close friend I ask that you please refrain from random hugs, kisses, back rubs, or any form of touching. If Sun hugs you first then by all means hug back. She and I love all of the followers with all of our hearts. But I need to remain true to the character of Sun and the backstory that has been well established.

Thank you for allowing me the opportunity to play Sun with conviction and honesty. This will also hopefully free up sometime for me to be able to speak with more of you throughout the night as I won't constantly be hugging a million times a night.

Sunshine