Gone

~Memory~

I'd just finished up with dinner dishes and ran out to go see Dusk. Normal time, just another day, or so I thought. I let myself in to find the house deadly quiet. Went down the hall to his room, and opened the door quietly in case he was still in downtime. But he wasn't there. Listening, I could hear and sense that none of them were.

I searched the house, finding nothing. Worried, I tried his phone only to hear it ringing in the house. I sat down to see if he'd come home. I was still there two days later, when my father came looking for me. Draven was gone. And there was nothing I could do about it right then.

Daddy insisted I come home. Once there I locked myself in my room and refused to come out for anything. I didn't eat, did nothing but sleep and stare at the walls for days. I held his picture, curled up in his shirt. And cried. I cried a lot. It was late one night, the house eerily quiet when I decided I couldn't and wouldn't live without him. I crossed the hall to the bathroom, found a razor blade and sliced into the skin on my wrists. I sat watching my blood draining from me, thinking how he used to love the taste of my blood. How he always told me I tasted amazing. And here I was wasting it. Served him right I thought at the time.

Star saved me that night.She called 911, and I ended up in the hospital for weeks. I tried many times to die. Always putting myself in dangerous situations. I just couldn't bear to live without him. And it took years and years for me to get over him. I eventually focused on Star. She saved me for the second time by giving me a reason to live.

It was just a year ago that I finally put the ring away. And gave up hope. And then guess who strolled his sexy ass back into my world. Yep DUSK.

From the second I opened that door, I knew I'd be his again. Nothing had changed in all those years. I still love him. And nothing can change it.

Hey Dusk, I love you.

Sunshine

Saved

*Journal Entry 2/27/2010*

~Memory of @draven_blood~

A night that should have ended in my death, strangely became the night my life actually began. It started as just another dreadful night at home. I was late returning home and Daddy was pissed and drunk.Never a good combination. I'd barely made it through the door when he started in on me.

The first punch hit me hard, knocking the breath from me. Trying to shield myself, dropping my slushie to the floor, angering him further. Star was at a friend's and I was so happy that she didn't have to witness this again. Daddy grabbed me and threw me against the wall, kicking me as I slumped to the floor. I do not know why he did these things to me. He just hated me I believe. He babied Star, treated her as a princess. I was worthless, disposable.

I could feel him dragging me as I lost conciousness. I don't know how long he beat me as I slipped in and out of reality. I begged for death, cried out to him to just end it all. I finally gave in fully to the darkness and remember nothing. Until........

I awoke in a strange room. Barely able to open my eyes, the room dark, too dark, I sensed his presence before I ever saw him. I knew I should be afraid, but I wasn't. I felt safe, for the first time in my life.

He sat quietly in a chair watching me. I tried hard to smile at him, but the broken bones prevented it. Little did I know I was already healing. He'd fed me his blood, giving me the gift of life. Without that I would have died.

Draven, he said his name was. It was the most beautiful name I'd ever heard. His smile opened my eyes to the beauty of love. I had never felt that in my short life. He did not have to pick me up and take me home, but he did. I still do not know why to this day. But I am eternally grateful that fate placed him on that stretch of beach that night.

For two days he fed me from his wrist, watching as my body healed, as the bruises disappeared, the bones mended. I was certain he'd send me back home once the healing was complete. And yet, he kept me close. He drove me home, packed my things and brought me back to his nest. I eventually had no choice but to go home. But he never let me suffer at his hands again, while he was around.

Dusk, saved not only my life, he saved my soul. I have loved him from the moment I opened my eyes to see him smiling at me.

SUN

*the Dusk I remember from those years*

Memories

~Journal Entry 2/26/2010~

*Memory of @draven_blood*

Summer I turned 18, I awoke one evening to find Dusk already up, watching me sleep, a smile on his face. He was always doing that. Watching me sleep. I always felt so beautiful when he looked at me.

We were going out that evening, him to hunt, me as bait. It usually worked that way, I lured them in and Dusk stepped in and drank his fill as I watched. I was always so fascinated by how he did it. He would lock eyes with me and it was so exciting to watch. Afterwards we normally spent the rest of the night in bed. But this night was different.

Dusk was quiet most of the feeding, which was unlike him. Hell Dusk was never quiet. He was always raising hell, but I digress. This evening he was focused on something. I was so scared that he'd finally tired of the human and thought my heart would be shattered that night. Little did I know.

It was around 1am and I was busy yawning like the silly little human I was. We'd just finished making love and I was resting my head on his chest, the candles burning out, our bodies connected. My eyes were drifting closed when I felt him move.

Opening my eyes to see what he was doing and settling on the small black box in his hand. My heart literally stopped beating. I thought I'd died and gone to Heaven. I'd never thought Dusk would even consider, much less want to marry me. Wide eyed and innocent, that's how he would describe me when telling the story.

Moving at vampire speed he dropped to one knee and called me HIS Sunshine, saying how he'd never be able to live without me, promising me that soon the time would come for me to be turned. After that we would marry, if I would have him.

IF, as if I'd ever say no to Dusk. It was the most romantic, perfect way for him to ask. I immediately said YES. Screamed it actually. After slipping the ring on my finger, he picked me up, sitting me on his lap and spent the last waking hours before dawn claiming me as his.

A night I shall never forget. I still have the ring, took it off just a year ago. When I'd finally lost all hope that I'd ever see him again. That was the hardest thing I'd ever done. Take his ring off, breaking his claim to me with such a simple gesture. Feeling as though I'd ripped my very heart out as the gold slid off my finger.

SUN
For those wishing to see the ring, it remains in my possession to this day, kept close to me at all times.

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Demon(MATURE AUDIENCES ONLY)

Journal Entry 2/16/10

That damn demon showed up again tonight. I just can't help myself when it comes to him. I completely lose control when he's around. And I know it's not his influence, because I can feel him trying to use it but it has no effect on my mood whatsoever. It's his touch. And the way he doesn't treat me as though I'm going to break.

As much as I love Serge, he always treated me like I'm fragile. And after all I've been through I can promise you I am not fragile.

But back to that DemonSeverus, there is just something about the way he looks at me, that makes me want to rip off my clothes and dance naked on the tables before fucking him all night. He seems to know exactly what I want.

And he gives it to me. Guess I'll just enjoy it while it lasts. Let's see how long he holds my interest.

SUN

The Blood Exchange

Good evening my friends,
So this is a question I've been asked repeatedly. I contracted hep d from a random human the night that NO Saints won the playoffs. Serge and I went hunting on Bourbon St and I became ill soon after. I kept this secret to protect my queen as it poses a great security risk to her if a member of her personal security detail is ill and unavailable.

Laurana knew but agreed to keep it secret. During this time I became progressively sicker eventually leading to my collapse. At which point Laur felt it necessary to notify the queen.
Once it was known how close to final death I was the queen ordered Charles_Twining to do whatever was necessary to save me. I'd still like to know how that pirate knew to drain me. But I am eternally grateful that he did.

Charles called in Hot_Rain, who is my closest friend and sophisticatedv who is my child. Both agreed, at great risk to themselves, to donate a third of their blood to prevent my untimely demise.

During the procedure I actually met final death and ascended to where ever it is that Vampires go. I was greeted by Long Shadow and Godric. It was during this time that those around me fought hard to bring me back.

I remember hearing Charles' voice and battled to return. Being very weak, I took time to recover at Hot_Rain's.

I now have a strong blood connection with all three of the donors. Much stronger than I thought possible. Though I can't say I mind. I guess we'll have to see how it goes.

How I feel about these changes, physical and mental, is a whole other blog. One I shall touch on soon.

SUN

Paris, Feb 13 evening

Second night in Paris. Spent the evening walking the streets with Serge. I'm enjoying reconnecting with him at the moment. He seems to have forgiven me for all that has happened but I'm still trying to take it slow. Yeah, we slept together 2 nights ago, but it was bound to happen sooner or later.
Serge and I have always had that chemistry. And the sex is always amazing. But its the love we share that is what drives me to get him to forgive me.
I'm not sure how to do that just yet but I'm working on it. As long as he's willing to talk to me and spend time together I'm happy.
I'm not the same SUN I was a month ago. I've lost so much recently. My sister, Star is gone. I'll never get that back. I almost died. Hell I did go to final death. But I was lucky that there were those that loved me enough to save me. But that's a story for another time.Tonight is about Serge.
So I'm off to spend the last few hours of night with the vampire I love. Tweet ya soon.

SUN